I am in a wedding in June, but on April 12th I got in a major car accident.?

I fractured my back, and have staples all around my head. I was helicoptered to M General Hospital (21,000$) I have no medical insurance because i'm in school still for my career.......so to make this short and to the point....I lost my car, my iphone, my $700 eye gles, school books, my coach handbag, and my wallet with license, birth certificate, and social security card...nobody can find my stuff including police, state troopers, EM T's , hospital staff, helicopter staff, etc.....i checked everywhere, and i need to not only replace all that stuff, but i need to get a new car to keep my full time job and to stay in night school ( while i'm still healing wearing a back brace everywhere). I've been home healing for weeks but not getting paid, and that depleted my whole savings.This is why i asked to get back to work sooner than I really should, because i have no help!! To make matters much worse i'm in my cousin's Wedding with 6 other girls, and everything we do for my cousin, we split the bill 7 ways...well the last part ( her bachelorette party) is the last thing we needed to plan for her and pay for......I'm getting better, and could probably go, but I just don't hav ethe money now, and I'm afraid all theeither girls will be mad that I'm not going to be able to pitch in this time around! You can't get blood from a stone! I even tried to say that I was told to stay in bed until the wedding to be safe......but my cousin knows i am going to work for some income. basically they are mad because they all decided ( without me) to rent her a bus, a hotel, clubbing in boston, dinner, and also let additional girls attend at our expense. Is it still my obligation as a bridesmaid to pay my portion of her bachelorette party, even if i can't go, since i will be working now, and i'm not suppose to go clubbing or dancing for quite sometime!!! They made such an expensive / excessive plan when i was in the hospital almost dying. And they are upset they need to pay for my portion since it is about 250 each bridesmaid for this event. I'm so confused, i feel bad enough, and i'm devastated over having no money to even fix my own life.....plus i still need to make the second half of my BMdress payment!!!!!! I have no boyfriend, and my parents won't help me, because they are divorced, and my step parents are always opposed to giving me anything! I actually just wanna die...I have no way to even begin putting my life back together without help...and there is literally no one to ask!!!! All i have now is this laptop, and a room I rent from my mom.